The One I Can't Forsake Pt.3

By Ryshawn W

I embarked on a journey of letting go of a woman whom I once believed I couldn't part ways with. Reflecting on our relationship triggers a cascade of thoughts within me. I find myself pondering the reasons behind my strong attraction towards her. While the obvious answer is clear, I felt compelled to delve deeper into the intricacies of our connection, unraveling a complex puzzle that demanded my attention. Although I could have straightforwardly asked for an explanation, her enigmatic nature shrouded her emotions, making it a challenge to decipher her true intentions.

On numerous occasions, I noticed subtle signs indicating that she didn't want our communication to cease, such as her gestures on my birthday two years ago and more recently. This revelation left me perplexed - why did she exhibit such behavior? Despite her lack of overt attachment towards me, I sensed a lingering curiosity about our bond. The recent turn of events seemed to mark a tipping point, where my actions inadvertently led to the outcome I claimed to desire but deep down wasn't prepared for - her decision to distance herself from me.

Contemplating the puzzle further, I grappled with the question of why she still sought to maintain a friendship with me, especially considering her initial intentions. Could it be that our relationship had evolved beyond mere physical desires over the past three years? However, a recent conversation hinted otherwise, reigniting the unresolved tension between us. The possibility of her viewing me as a clandestine partner crossed my mind, yet I remained steadfast in my stance, knowing that such a role was incongruent with my values.

As I continue to unravel this enigma, I find myself entangled in a web of emotions that transcend mere affection. The attachment I feel towards her is not rooted in romantic love, as that chapter has long closed. Now faced with a crossroads, I grapple with the decision of whether to mend what I once shattered or simply allow fate to dictate the course of our relationship. The complexity of human emotions and relationships unfolds before me, urging me to navigate this intricate maze with caution and introspection.