Mixed Signals

By Chrissy M.

Do you ever feel like you’re being led on?

Like you’re just someone’s pawn on a chess board,

waiting to be moved to the next square.

When do you know you’ve had enough?

When the relationship eventually goes nowhere and you’re left alone,

after denying everyone because of her.

Or do you have hope that it’ll actually go somewhere?

Do you think she’s gonna magically start giving you more attention?

And then you guys are gonna end up together for real this time—

not just in your head, but in real life.

Why must you see it through when you know she doesn’t want you?

Well, at least she doesn’t act like it…

She tells you you guys should maybe just be friends, and you agree,

but only because you have hope that one day you’ll be more than that.

Meanwhile, she still flirts with you and makes it seem like she’s interested in you.

Are those not mixed signals?

How am I supposed to react when presented with this behavior?

You’re not ready to be with me,

but you keep making advances—

and it’s not good for my head.

I don’t know what to do or how to go about this,

but please be gentle with me.

I’ve been through a lot within my first time dating—

it’s only been seven months for me so far,

and all I’ve learned is that I fall too easily,

and women loving women might be a myth…